Heavy!

I started to write a status on Facebook but thought that one; I might be a little wordy for a status post and two I don't really want comments from those that have different views than me TODAY! Usually I don't mind a good debate of differing political viewpoints. Today I won't be able to take it. I need some time to mourn and then recover! This is my blog and if you don't like what I am writing don't read it! 

What has me scratching my head is that I have never been so vested in an election since I had the privilege of voting. I mean I paid attention here and there. I usually asked my sweet, smart friend Robin for guidance since we had the same values, morals, faith etc. I trusted her opinion. I would also listen to my friends and family who were definitely more into politics than i ever was...Stacie, Shelly, Andria, my brother Don. I would chew on what they would say and then make my own political decisions! These 5-6 years have been different for me. I have read up on my own, took other opinions in and researched the differences and came up with my own conclusions. When President Obama was elected the last time I was a bit nervous. I will admit that I was happy that our country actually voted in a black human being! Some things were changing. I found some comfort in that! That lasted all of 1 month! Where did all those people go that voted for them?? I was so disheartened, I actually knew smart, strong faithful people who voted for him for the sole reason of the color of his skin??!! What?!! How can that be??!! He promised change! Well, we got change! Change vs. dollars in my pocket book! Higher taxes, healthcare costs that have gone through the roof and expect to go higher! I know some people think that if Romney was voted in Women's rights would be pushed back 50 years. Really people?! 

I watched those poles last night like a hawk! I had hope! I even got a little excited and thought what if?! 

So last night the country spoke, well at least half of them will be happy. I can only pray that Obama sees that he made it in by the skin of his teeth and that it was not a landslide and maybe he might rethink his positions of the economy, healthcare, gas prices, etc! Realizing that half the country did not want him for a second term!

The minute I heard Diane Sawyer announce that Obama had won I was immediately sickened! I was shock that I felt that way. I could have probably teared up a little if I had let myself go there! I mean seriously where was this coming from?? Just an election. We will be fine! But what I was thinking was for  my children, my grandchildren!!! How will we ever recover from another 4 years??!!  Immediately I received a text from my friend Stacie of her disappointment as well. I went on Facebook sadness and celebratory posts! I couldn't take it! I didn't want to see his I won speech. I didn't want to see Romney's I lost speech! I turned on my Beverly Hills Housewife show. That helped. Reality! Hah! 

Went to bed and woke up at 4 with such a heavy heart! Couldn't stop thinking of what happened! How can this be? How does half the country not see what I am seeing?

So like I said I am going to take today to be sad and mourn just like I said! Today is Bible Study. I have a pumpkin bread pudding in the oven and my girls and I are going to pray for our country and eat yummy bread pudding! That will help! I am going to wish my friend Stephanie a Happy Birthday today and start some laundry! Life goes on!

I am thankful for this country and my freedom! I am thankful for the men and women that fought for my freedom and for my right to vote! I will show my children to respect the man that is our President even though he is not the one that I voted for! Most importantly, I will cling to the fact that My Lord and Savior knew who the winner was going to be and His great plan for our country is better than anything I could every dream of!